The first thing that I noticed about my featured image—once I finished it, uploaded it, and was able to see it up close and personal—were the imperfections. Some lines too thick, some too thin, and a few that need smoothing. I think some of that happened when I added the lighting effect. Regardless, I had to laugh at my nitpicking because that is my default response and my writing prompt tonight was leading me right in that direction. It was like some weird kind of self-fulfilled prophecy!
Tonight my prompt is to imagine myself looking at my reflection, and to describe what I see and any emotions that it evokes. I was excited to try another stained glass image, so I found one that was fairly simple so I could do it quickly. When I pondered what I would say when I saw my reflection, I thought about the things that I normally tell myself… “damn girl your hair looks bad,” or “wow, is that a pimple?? Another age spot??” I know I’m not alone when it comes to this kind of “reflection self-talk,” because a lot of women are prone to it. At least the women that I know.
When I noticed the line imperfections in my image I had to laugh. My mind was churning in the same fashion that it does when I notice a wrinkle!
Anyway, I don’t think this prompt should be about outer beauty. That’s too easy. Or maybe too cliché. So… I’m going to think on this one for twenty-four hours and then write it. I think PART ONE was about realizing how quick I am to find fault in myself, or my work, or my art. So PART TWO will be to write the things that I would like to say to myself, or the things that I need to hear. I think I’m worthy of that. We are all worthy of that. As I read earlier this week…
“You are amazing…
Own that shit.”
See you tomorrow for PART TWO. Feel free to use the prompt if you feel the urge!