Long time no see!
It seems like forever since I posted last. For me anyway. Which is why I got the idea for the title of my post. And part of my image as well.
I mentioned before that I often catch myself rushing when I’m not even in a hurry, but I’m taking that a step further.
The actual phrase imaginary urgency came to me out of the blue (no pun intended), when I was thinking about how I posted regularly for quite a while and then dropped off the face of WP. I looked it up, and it means exactly what I was thinking.
What it refers to is a sense of urgency that is created when it’s not really justified. Like when I was feeling obligated or compelled to create / write / post… create / write / post… when – in fact – doing so was not a necessity.
I suppose it might be if this were a business or some kind of money making scheme, but it’s not, and I hardly think that a hobby should ever be urgent. That would be weird.
Anyway, I read that one of the causes for this imaginary urgency could be the way that I’ve been shaped by my culture, a culture that equates busyness with productivity. Makes sense!
I’ve read that before you know. That some of us (me) can tend to act busy because it makes us feel more important. Maybe that has something to do with my thoughts that I lack a purpose, too! I like to pretend that I have one. Ha-ha! Funny, but not funny. I’ll have to think about that some more.
Anyway, all of that being said, it’s been nice to step away. I feel rejuvenated. I had created this blue scene weeks ago, and wanted badly to share it here, but I was at a loss for words as to what it might mean… or how it made me feel.
When I began thinking about this unrealistic urgency the other day, I had the idea for the tree… and that’s when I added it. Basically, it represents this sense of urgency.
As you can see, it kind of blocks the view of this very serene looking house, and it’s a bit of a tangled mess. Not 100%, but it could get there if it kept growing and branching out.
In stepping away, however, when you look at that same tangle of limbs with a calm eye and mind… it becomes beautiful. To me anyway. I think what I’m trying to say is that everything looks better when you’ve had time to reflect and destress.
I was running out of ideas before, and my imaginary sense of urgency was responding like this wild tree… reaching, reaching, reaching… for some kind of brainstorm, until it just wasn’t fun anymore.
Now that I’ve untangled myself, I can see again, I am inspired again, and I’m ready to have fun again. In small doses, that is.
What’s ironic is that when I originally finished the image, before the tree came to life, I desperately wanted to call it Tangled Up in Blue, like the Dylan song, but I kept thinking “how can this blue house relate to tangled up in blue??”
Now, with my tangled tree of urgency, it makes sense! And I actually just realized that! Maybe there was a motive… hidden in my subconscious.
Anyway… that’s about all for now. Thank you for reading and looking.
I hope you enjoyed!!
Modern man is frantically trying to earn enough
to buy things he’s too busy to enjoy.
-Frank A. Clark
a sprinkle of faith 
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