I need a purpose.
With school and various hobbies, one of which is this blog – the writing contained in it, as well as the images I work hard (sometimes) to create – there is still a burning question that I keep asking myself… to what end?
This is something that I contemplate now and then, and this past week did not help. I started feeling icky just before my son arrived from out of state, for a weeklong visit, and all I really felt like doing was sleeping. And my brain was in a fog.
I struggled hard and made it through, having an awesome time with my son, but my schoolwork was hard to complete. Have you ever stared at something you need to read and all you can make of it is Charlie Brown’s teacher’s famous words… blah blah BLAH blah blah blah BLAH. And don’t say my blog or I’ll be mad! HaHa!
Anyway, how do you make sense of that? Needless to say, there was no way in hell that I had it in me to create or write a post. It’s funny because I started to feel like I was letting people down by disappearing. Like I’d be sorely missed or something, but – as most long term bloggers know – that doesn’t exactly happen.
I’ll pop back in, just like I’m doing now, and it’ll be like I never left. Of course, some bloggers only share once a week or even less than that – so compared to them I’m up to par!
The point is… I’d like my posts to have an effect of some kind. To make people think, or to make readers laugh, or maybe even shed a tear (tears of happiness of course). That’s a big ask, I am well aware, but otherwise… what is the purpose?
I know that sometimes my innermost thoughts – written here on the page for everyone to see – are a bit “too much information” at times, but I want you to know where I’m at (or where I’ve been and will continue to be).
I’m looking for a purpose.
My image is a woman that I illustrated sometime prior, changed up ever so slightly (colors). I’ve exchanged the original background for a watercolor effect to show her looking out over an abstract view. It’s hard to tell what it is really – kind of like my purpose.
So… this is something I’m going to contemplate. Like my lady friend here. Probably not in a bathing suit, but you never know because it’s getting pretty hot here lately!
And to circle back to my thoughts about feeling like my life is kind of flat these days – I have to say that I’m 99% sure that it stems from my lack of purpose. So things should only get better from here!
Anyway, I think that’s all for now. Thank you for reading / viewing, I hope you enjoyed something here!
Until next time,
Peace & Love!
“Life is never made unbearable by circumstances, but only by lack of meaning and purpose.” -Viktor Frankl
a sprinkle of faith 
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