First of all, I want to say “Hello… it is good to be back!” Even if it’s only momentarily. For now.

It’s been a little over a month since I’ve been active here on the blog. In traditional time, one month is not long at all, but by today’s standards – with social distancing and another round of shut-downs hitting my area tomorrow night—one month can feel like eternity. Like everything else, my concept of time has been altered.

The phrase “riding the tide” came to mind when I was thinking about life being turned upside down. I’m not even sure if I’m understanding the idiom correctly, but the way that I’m visualizing it sure fits. And when I say upside down, I don’t mean that every single occurrence has been negative, gloomy, or tragic (although for some that might be the case). What I mean is that my life—like the lives of many others—has experienced a major, and quite uncomfortable “shift.” It’s like we were beamed up by some kind of sci-fi light and transported… from a time when things were like that, to a time where things are like this. Life just isn’t the same.  

I was thinking back on my drinking and partying days (way back when it was still happy and fun, that is), and even on the days when I worked in the real estate industry, when the market was rising at warp speed and property values were skyrocketing. I was whooping it up and spending money like it was raining from the sky (or growing on trees). In times like that, there was a gut feeling that I always had… way down deep. An omen of impending doom, perhaps? Something inside of me just knew that if things kept going the way they were going, or if I kept behaving the way I was behaving, a CRASH was imminent. Well, the market DID crash. And so did I. Right down the chute to the rocky bottom.

I think that we all have that internal warning system, even though some of us are really good at ignoring it or even playing chicken with it. Remember that game? Anyway… I started thinking about what’s gone on, and what is still going on, and I had to wonder. Did anyone ever have gut feelings that something like this was going to happen? Did I? 

Maybe it’s my old self-sabotaging self that always expects bad things to happen, or just feels that they inevitably will… but I have to say that there have been times in my life when things seemed to be going far too good. That’s usually when I would hear the alarm, sirens blazing and my gut letting me know that when something (life) seems too good to be true—it probably is.

Maybe those internal alarms that are built into us humans aren’t always warning us that life is going too well, and so something bad will inevitably happen. Maybe those gut instincts are telling us that something HAS to happen—something that will shake (or wake) us up—because, just like what happened in my old drinking, partying and over-spending days, sometimes we need something to make us see that we haven’t really been living… we’ve just been riding the tide. Going with the flow. Complacent.

I don’t know. Just a thought.

On another note, I’ve missed everyone. I left for my sister’s house a month ago with every intention of returning once I got home, but life had other plans and I needed to spend time offline and focus on school. Three more weeks and I’ll be on winter break, then three more classes next semester and I’ll finally have my Bachelor’s degree. Yahoo!!

I’ve been doing a lot of new things, and one of them is sewing. My bed has been swallowed up by pillows that I’ve sewn covers for, and there is barely room for me in there anymore. I do love my photographs and art, but I have to say that sewing something and then holding the finished product in your hands is one of the most awesome feelings ever. And speaking of photographs and art, I created the featured image from an old photo of my son surfing—a little symbolism there, I suspect. The contrast and darkness in the wave that is going to crash makes me think of a journey into the unknown. It can be scary in there, but there is always something to be found in it.

That’s about all for now. For those of you celebrating, have a wonderful Thanksgiving…

Peace & Love!


  1. Speaking of internal warning systems, I do believe that we’re all built with one that tries to guide us on the right path, to do the things we’re ‘supposed’ to do, whatever that is for each of us. It’s just that a lot of us are good at ignoring it too, just like how I do mine.

    Thanks for this post!

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    1. Thanks for the comment Stuart. What you’re describing sounds a lot like our conscience. Maybe they’re connected or maybe they’re one in the same. 😄


  2. Hi there Janet! It’s been a while 😊. I do that….. always expect the worst. Oddly, eventhough 2020 has been the worst for many, it’s been one of my very best years. I love life and keep on expecting something to happen. Impending doom. Cause why would I deserve such happiness and peace.

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    1. Well hello stranger!!! Oh goodness it’s so good to hear from you! I am so glad that 2020 has been good to you, you deserve it. I was thinking when I was writing this that maybe that impending doom we expect sometimes is capable of being part of a self fulfilled prophecy… which plays into self-destruction. So enjoy your good life and stay positive!! How’s your baby??? Do we have pictures?? I’ve missed you and again… it’s so nice to hear from you. When people are quiet I always fear the worst. Hmmm… another faulty warning system maybe lol. 😘🥰

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    2. We are so alike! I also assume the worst if my husband is 5 minutes late lol. I’m trying to shake the impending doom feeling, last thing I want is to self-destruct right now. Baby is doing so good!! She is getting big and time is going by waaaay to fast. We moved to Missouri a couple of months ago! And yes of course, there are looooots of pictures of my sweet little daughter…. I just haven’t put them on my blog. Any way I could send them to you? She really is a cutie 😀

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    3. I hope you are enjoying Missouri! That’s one state I have never been to and I hope to see it someday. I had many clients in St. Louis. Anyway, glad the baby is doing well!! I have an email specifically for this site: janet.endlessrivers@gmail.com – you can email pics there if possible. It is so good to hear you are doing so well and that the baby is doing good, and that you are happy!!! Much love to you!!


    1. My daughter buys all her cloths from thrift shops. When she performs her songs, people come up to her and say, “Where did you get that lovely dress?”

      “A thrift shop!” she proudly says.

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  3. Oh how I’ve missed you and your wonderful posts! So glad you’re back. Big love to you. It’s good to hear that you are finding ways to enjoy life, even in all this messy uncertainty. I do know one thing: WP friends make life much brighter. Happy Thanksgiving! 💕🌟🌱

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    1. Awww thank you Collette, and a happy Thanksgiving to you and yours!! They’re shutting down outdoor dining tonight at midnight here… so it looks like we’re having take-out until Saturday when we actually celebrate with the family here at the house. This whole thing is a sh#& show if you ask me, but I’m staying positive because it’s the holidays lol. I’ve missed you my friend!! 😘🥰


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